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Hey's been a really long time. God almost a year? Last entry was May 5th, 2012.
I guess I just need to vent a bit. I don't know what else to do.
Don't worry about the title. I'm just listening the Bleeding Out by Imagine Dragons. Haha
First off. I'm sorry for those who have tried to contact me...It's been a long and eventful year. Filled with good and bad. So I apologize.
I guess I should start with the good news.
- I got accepted into my first choice of a college. SNHU here I come.
- I've got my job
- I've got a car
- I have a boy to call me own...

I can't really think of much else really...oh! SNHU offered me a 14K scholarship.

Well now for the bad news.
Well...remember that boy I call me own, he might not be for much longer. I don't know anymore. I just don't. I'm happy but I'm not. I love him to death but what if he's just not right for me. We're on break from each other right now. I'm not talking to him until Wednesday night. I'm really sad about it too...I miss him. My heart hurts. My head hurts. Just I ache. I don't know anymore. I just don't. I need to distract myself for a bit...I need time. But I don't even know what makes me happy anymore. We have problems...what couple doesn't. We fight a lot. Over the stupidest things. But those moments when we are having a good time with each other literally mean the world to me. They me everything to me. It's been the happiest I've been in a few years. But right now at this moment...I just don't know anymore. Talking to him last night I just broke. I broke hard. I don't know what to do for once...and that really scares me. That really really scares me beyond anything else. I'm really scared...I'm confused and just tired. I'm lost...I just needed to get things out guys...
I'll talk to you guys later. Have a good night/day.
  • Listening to: Imagine Dragons
  • Reading: Nothing!
  • Watching: Doctor Who
  • Playing: Nothing!
  • Eating: Cliff Bar
  • Drinking: Water


Artist | Student | Varied
United States
Herro! I totally forgot what I put here originally and KAICHO. YOU ICON. WILL. NEVER. LEAVE. THIS. ID. xD


Current Residence: Some where coloring your undies! o 3o
Print preference: WHAT IS THIS?!! O__O;
Favourite genre of music: Techno
Favourite photographer: N/a
Favourite style of art: Photography
Operating System: Windows Vista
MP3 player of choice: Iriver
Shell of choice: Turrtle!! ( And or Sea Shell? )
Wallpaper of choice: Anthing random...o_O
Skin of choice: Feline!? :D
Favourite cartoon character: Rena Ryuugu ( Higurashi/ When they Cry )
Personal Quote: "We are like two stars in the night sky, so close, yet so far..."

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cstalli Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday \uvu/
NiveusNitor Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:3 well HELLOOO~
XxFATxCATxX Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Jay, if the others don't see this, here:
Please have them read it. Until then, I'm taking off the ring you gave me, since I've just given up hope on the old gang...
gnohz Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Professional Photographer
Hi Jay! Just want to say thanks for the watch! :huggle:
LeoGoesRAWR Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2012
Thanks for the favorites!
I appreciates it. =>

ShiraSM787 Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2012
thanks for the fav! :3
gnohz Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2012  Professional Photographer
Hi Jay! :wave:
Just dropping by to say thank you for adding First light to your favs! Appreciate it :)
Cody-Tailor Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2012  Student General Artist
you have been tagged [link]
grohsARTig Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2011  Professional Digital Artist
thank you for the fav! :dance: feel free to take a look in my gallery ;) feedback is always welcome! [link]
DarkMythrill Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2011  Student General Artist
Alright! =D Thank you!
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